Looking Back @ 2oo8..

So, another year has come to a close. Looking back I can honestly say it has been the hardest year of my life. Lots of changes. From MCC to working for my dad full time to graduating high school to relationships ending and moving to Nashville for college... they were all exciting and nerve racking times. But still it was hard and I have learned a whole lot about myself.

I don't think I deal with change all too well. I like to know whats going on and to have a system. I also like knowing where I stand with people which usually means having known them for a while. I guess I had to learn these things the hard way by moving. It took me a while to adjust to the way things go in college.

I'd have to say that a year ago if you told me how my life would be today, I would have said absolutely not. I'd also say that sometimes I wish things had ended up differently. I would have done a lot of things differently this year. But whats done is done and I'll just have to keep the faith that it all happened for a reason.

I think its just New Years that makes me look back and wonder if about what I need to do differently next year. I think it has a lot of potential to be a lot of fun... but I'm scared that if I get excited about it I'll just be let down. I know that's not a very trusting attitude, but it is an honest one.

I'm unsure of some things. How God wants to use me next year, my major and well just life plan in general... but I'm also hopeful about the good things God has in store. Being me, I'm making a list here of things I'm looking forward to about this coming semester/ year and things I want to accomplish I guess.

1. Having a car @ school
2. Go to Centential Park more (to play volleyball or picnic etc.)
3. Help out with RUF and the FPC service
4. St. Louis!
5. Change my major
6. Scuba more
7. Family Cruise!
8. Hope Sibling Week
9. Jessica coming to FL for spring break
10. Katie visiting Belmont
11. Katie's graduation!
12. Megan & Jason having their baby
13. Helping out at the church office over the summer
14. Summer trips with FBC
15. Family Cruise

thats all I can think of at this very second... I hope they all get to happen.

You know I just remebered something Cameron Parker said in bible study the other week. I was a saying of her mom's that I think I might adopt to be my goal for 2009. "Don't anticipate just participate"